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Struggling with Faith and Lack



Lack of true faith creates lack in all areas of life. Once this is realized, we can allow for contentment and abundance. 

Do you struggle with faith: Do you struggle with thoughts or feelings of lack? In my own search, like many people do from time to time, I have been struggling with the idea (or misconception) of my life not turning out the way I wanted; with things like dissatisfaction, envy. These are bad and I know it. I asked for help with it. I see that these are the result of choices I made in a lack of faith, even though I boasted for decades that I lived on faith, that I had faith. At times I did, but in many ways I didn’t, especially through my impatience and in not just letting things (guidance) unfold. So now that I have a better understanding of faith, and I am implementing that new understanding of faith as actual faith, I am seeing and looking though at where I sit and it has been eye-opening.

In these thoughts, I also came up with (or was given) the question of: if I had nothing to compare it to, would I then think I had/have a good life? I think yes. It is seeing and constantly comparing to the outside world (to others) that at least in part, I begin to feel lack. Also there is a big dream or two that have never happened, but in constantly seeing the lack, feeling lack, I am overlooking what I do have, with all that I have been blessed. And that is the point of growth isn’t it, to begin to see the truth, to see our faults, to see where we have fallen short.

Social media is such a big negative factor in all this; in constantly seeing what others have or are doing, feeling the need to achieve, to compete. And maybe there are some who feel that way when they see my posts. Big boat, little boat as my husband always says, and I am looking at the big boats way too much. If I only look at my boat what do I see; what do I have? This verse is especially powerful in this respect: 1 Corinthians 4:7,  “For who sees anything different in you? What do you have that you did not receive? If then you received it, why do you boast as if you did not receive it?” And of course, Exodus 20:17, tells us in the Ten Commandments, that we should not covet anything of our neighbor’s and in this day and age of constant communication with others, media, celebrities and their lifestyles, all crammed in our faces through technology, it is so difficult to avoid and may be the biggest common daily challenge that we each face in remaining true to the commandments.

In 2 Corinthians 10:12, the Apostle Paul writes, “For we dare not make ourselves of the number, or compare ourselves with some that commend themselves: but they measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise.” He goes on to say in Galatians 1:10, “For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.” He tells us in 2 Corinthians 13:5, “Examine yourselves, to see whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves.” This is where I am at, examining and testing my own level of faith. It is not easy but is something we must do in order to make sure we are drawing on the real gift of faith. Sometimes in doing so, we will find our failures which we can then correct and overcome by using the faith gifted us.

It is Thanksgiving weekend I am not being as grateful right now as I should be (the irony of that); I haven’t lived what I claimed to be my truth and because I did not, it has cost me many things and this loss was due to a lack of true faith. It is because of these things that my lack of faith cost me that I am now seeing them as lack but with an understanding of my own fault in the matter. I can see this because I am now starting to live in true faith; the faith gifted me rather than something I tied to conjure up or super-impose upon myself from varying tidbits and philosophies I encountered along my journey.  

The Bible says that every man (person) is gifted with faith. Romans 12:3 says “. . . God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith.” Ephesians 2:8 also says, “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God,” yet claiming faith and actually using the gift of the faith are two different things. It is one more thing that I am learning to allow. I must allow myself to open up to the true faith I am gifted so that it can override all else. I think it must be human nature to doubt and fear, yet this gift of faith within is stronger than any of it if I allow myself to draw on it. Then once I am really using the true gift of *faith, I am beginning to let go of feelings of lack and to be appreciative of all that I have been gifted.

*For more on faith, Hebrews 11 offers a brief but near-full recap of biblical persons all acting through the gift of faith and it is so encouraging to read.


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Cheryl Yale-Bruedigam has been writing spiritually for thirty years. With undergraduate studies in English and women's studies, she devoted over a decade of research and writing to women’s studies and spirituality.

Bruedigam is also certified yoga instructor. She lives in New Mexico with her husband.

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