It is unlikely that I have ever made a truly wise decision or Godly choice in my whole life; maybe marrying my husband whom I felt very spiritually strong about, but that’s about it. All the decisions I made at the root still boil down to myself, my desires.
Recently I have been thinking a lot on all the decisions we make in our lives that contribute to the future, to getting our self eventually backed into a corner from which there is no way out. That seemed what I had done.
Psalm 32:10 says there is only sorrow for those who refuse to listen to the word of God. That is what I did in refusing to make any wise or Godly decisions, it got me in the mess I am in (health, stress, struggling upstream), at least in part. I see it in other people’s lives but in some not at all. Perhaps that is the difference, Godly choices. But I know too that the corner I backed into is God’s corner and that is right where He wants me so that I become fully dependent upon Him (which I have and that is a very recent development). Releasing all my own desires, stopping the struggling to go back upstream, and learning to rely fully upon the Spirit. For so long, I thought I was. I was deceiving myself because I was not. I have ignored guidance. I make decisions based on my self and my wants and preferences, not on God, not on others, but on myself. Doing that got me into a corner, God’s corner and now God is the only one who can get me out, I know He will now that I really understand this and I understand why I am here in the corner. I have been given the sacred key.
Now that I know these things, it is time to change. And I am changing, it is a work in progress but now there is conscious choice involved and first the first time ever, not only am I in God’s corner, but God is in my corner.
In reflecting back, what decisions do you feel that you have made that were wise or Godly or the opposite? Do you feel that you are trapped with no solution in sight? Do you feel that you have no one to turn to? Is there so much selfishness, past, fear and racket in your head that you cannot discern wisdom apart from it all?
The truth is you are not ever alone. The Spirit is waiting right there, in the corner with you, for you to stop, surrender and ask for God’s will for your life. Turn your life over to Christ in that corner; it is your key to the freedom of a new future and a new life. He has been watching and waiting, orchestrating and weaving to get you just where you need to be and now you hold the simple key to unlock the chains that are binding you and keeping you in that corner. This is part of your path to wholeness, living wholly (holy), freedom in Christ and release from the corner.
About Cheryl Yale-Bruedigam
Cheryl Yale-Bruedigam has been writing spiritually for thirty years. With undergraduate studies in English and women's studies, she devoted over a decade of research and writing to women’s studies and spirituality. She is now teaching and sharing A Woman's Path to Wholeness Through Biblical Teachings.
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